i am tired... i get tired of being hurted by someone i loved.. it always just the same, i know someone, we get close to each other, and i started to fall in love with him. and everything seems so perfect at the first. until, here comes time when he starts to ignore me and all...!!!
can anyone tell me why? i don't ask a lot, all i want is just someone, who love me and cares me with all of his heart and love me just the way i am. is that too hard to be true?
or sometimes, when i think my life is perfect, i still feel so lonely. i can't help my self for it. i feel that no one really cares about me and no one love me. i feel so empty inside.
ok, maybe in times i can feel so happy and enjoy my life, but there is time like these, when i feel so desperate... it's just become a part of life maybe?
Friday, June 30, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
L.U.L.U.S
tadi malem sumpah ak deg2an banget... gimana coba klo ak ga lulus? kan malu bgt klo musti ngulang kelas 3, parah na lagi.. ak isa diusir dr rumah sama papa. wew.
td pas sampe di skul juga deg2an, untung banyak temen ksh support.. jd ga pa pa.
trus sampe akhir na, diumumin klo nilai ku plng tinggi sekelas... trus juga di mapel inggris na paling tinggi se kab... tp jadi na skul ku juga paling tinggi rata2 na. omg.. puji tuhan bgt.. nilai semua na 25 koma berapa gitu.. inggris na 9,00 bi 8,80 trus ekonomi na 7,30... all i can say is praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
td pas sampe di skul juga deg2an, untung banyak temen ksh support.. jd ga pa pa.
trus sampe akhir na, diumumin klo nilai ku plng tinggi sekelas... trus juga di mapel inggris na paling tinggi se kab... tp jadi na skul ku juga paling tinggi rata2 na. omg.. puji tuhan bgt.. nilai semua na 25 koma berapa gitu.. inggris na 9,00 bi 8,80 trus ekonomi na 7,30... all i can say is praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
EXORCISM
i just watch this movie last night.. and i must say that it's a kewl movie... and it's made me realize something..
1. that we must fight evil in this world, lately today there's so many terrible things happened.. that maybe it means... it's the end of the world.
2. that we will never know when we'll die, that's mean, we must appreciate life.
sometimes, i feel so lonely and that life's sucks and that i'd rather die... but in fact, we can't just waste our limited time just to feel sorry about ourselves. we should enjoy life, while we still have the chance to do it. imagine, what happens after we dead? ok, this topic starts freaking me out... i hate talking about what happens after we dead. but i can't deny it, we just have 2 choices... hell or heaven. so i just think to try my best to live my life. yes, life is colorful, sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's so bitter. but can we just enjoy it? enjoy the bitterness and the sweetness... coz this is life.
p.s : possesed people is horrible, i hope it would never happen to me and all people i loved, and i suggest, if u think that you believe in Christ, then better watch this movie. becoz i feel that i trust Him stronger after i watch this. lol.
1. that we must fight evil in this world, lately today there's so many terrible things happened.. that maybe it means... it's the end of the world.
2. that we will never know when we'll die, that's mean, we must appreciate life.
sometimes, i feel so lonely and that life's sucks and that i'd rather die... but in fact, we can't just waste our limited time just to feel sorry about ourselves. we should enjoy life, while we still have the chance to do it. imagine, what happens after we dead? ok, this topic starts freaking me out... i hate talking about what happens after we dead. but i can't deny it, we just have 2 choices... hell or heaven. so i just think to try my best to live my life. yes, life is colorful, sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's so bitter. but can we just enjoy it? enjoy the bitterness and the sweetness... coz this is life.
p.s : possesed people is horrible, i hope it would never happen to me and all people i loved, and i suggest, if u think that you believe in Christ, then better watch this movie. becoz i feel that i trust Him stronger after i watch this. lol.
I wANT yoU tO WanT mE
right now, i think i got a crush with a boy (of course!). He's so nice, kindly... but just like the other boy, he acts annoying sometimes. you can say that our relation is complicated, but at least we are good friends, even that i call him "hun" lol.
he had an ex gf.. and i just think that he can't make his mind. he can't choose what he wants. stupid i think, but i can't stop to cares about him. me, i don't wanna fall in love with him, but i can't deny that i want him.
it's sooooooo hard to guess what exactly i feel to him, but i think is like i mention, i just want him. i want to know how it feels if he's mine, but the most important is i want him to want me. but what can i do? he even can't make his mind... i must show him, that i worth his full attention. geez, i have a good words for this, taken from M2M song, i'll write it here....
someone to treat you right
stay with you day and night
i can tell that's what you need
i know just what to do
i'll take good care of you
baby, you can get that from me
i can tell she's not treating you right
everytime you look at me..
so which one will you choose?
you look so confused..
tell me the truth...!
do you know what you want??
love's so hard to find
so make up your mind
do you know what you want??
oh baby can't you see?
one minute you're with me..
the next one you are all over her
she talks behind your back
you know i'll stay on track
something she wouldn't for sure
how can i help you to make up your mind?
boy you're running out of time
please call me and say
i am the one
you need in your life
the game that you play
ain't no fun
just answer me now
he had an ex gf.. and i just think that he can't make his mind. he can't choose what he wants. stupid i think, but i can't stop to cares about him. me, i don't wanna fall in love with him, but i can't deny that i want him.
it's sooooooo hard to guess what exactly i feel to him, but i think is like i mention, i just want him. i want to know how it feels if he's mine, but the most important is i want him to want me. but what can i do? he even can't make his mind... i must show him, that i worth his full attention. geez, i have a good words for this, taken from M2M song, i'll write it here....
someone to treat you right
stay with you day and night
i can tell that's what you need
i know just what to do
i'll take good care of you
baby, you can get that from me
i can tell she's not treating you right
everytime you look at me..
so which one will you choose?
you look so confused..
tell me the truth...!
do you know what you want??
love's so hard to find
so make up your mind
do you know what you want??
oh baby can't you see?
one minute you're with me..
the next one you are all over her
she talks behind your back
you know i'll stay on track
something she wouldn't for sure
how can i help you to make up your mind?
boy you're running out of time
please call me and say
i am the one
you need in your life
the game that you play
ain't no fun
just answer me now
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
SEAL oh SEAL....!!!!
sori aja kali ini ak pake bahasa indonesia yah, krn ak lg sebel bgt...
tau deh ak tu plgn suka ama game ol yg bernama seal, tp kenapa sehhh seal di warnet ku tu bermasalah selalu???
plis deh, ak cuma pengen maen seal dengan tenang, dan kali ini ak lg ngepatch ulang seal ku,
sementara itu waktu sudah menunjukan pukul 12 siang, padahal tar sore ak jaga warnet jam 3!!!
o my god... sapa seh yg ga pusing?
ok mungkin ak mang kecanduan seal atau apa ak ga peduli deh..
ak juga ga tau apa tujuan ku nulis post ini di blog ku.. yah, cuman buat ngisi waktu luang sekaligus latihan jari di tengah warnet yg berisik banget ini (lg pada maen CS gitu loh).
hemmm, trus juga besok senen tu pengumuman.. adoooh!! kira2 ak bakal lulus ga yahhhh???
but as my cousin says "you have do the best, let God do the rest" amen.
wew, ini ngapain juga seal na pake lama bgt?
kyk na abis ini ak mo update website ku aja deh biar ga bosen....
ak juga mikir, sapa ya kira2 yg bakal baca tulisan ngacoku ini?? heuehehehe....
GBU alwayz.
tau deh ak tu plgn suka ama game ol yg bernama seal, tp kenapa sehhh seal di warnet ku tu bermasalah selalu???
plis deh, ak cuma pengen maen seal dengan tenang, dan kali ini ak lg ngepatch ulang seal ku,
sementara itu waktu sudah menunjukan pukul 12 siang, padahal tar sore ak jaga warnet jam 3!!!
o my god... sapa seh yg ga pusing?
ok mungkin ak mang kecanduan seal atau apa ak ga peduli deh..
ak juga ga tau apa tujuan ku nulis post ini di blog ku.. yah, cuman buat ngisi waktu luang sekaligus latihan jari di tengah warnet yg berisik banget ini (lg pada maen CS gitu loh).
hemmm, trus juga besok senen tu pengumuman.. adoooh!! kira2 ak bakal lulus ga yahhhh???
but as my cousin says "you have do the best, let God do the rest" amen.
wew, ini ngapain juga seal na pake lama bgt?
kyk na abis ini ak mo update website ku aja deh biar ga bosen....
ak juga mikir, sapa ya kira2 yg bakal baca tulisan ngacoku ini?? heuehehehe....
GBU alwayz.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
NoT a GirL not YeT a wOmAn
this is not a Britney's lyrics or what, lol. i think i'm on this line now.
right now my age is 17 and it will be 18 on october this year.
i dunno am i still can call my self a teenager? or a young lady?
or even my dad still call me "baby girl" lol.
i'm not childish.. but i love when my dad called me that way, coz it means he loves me, rite?
even some ppl says that i'm wiser than my age, lol.
ahhhhhh.... i just made this blog and i dunno what to say coz this is my first time post a message.
but i think i will made this blog my diary, kinda like that.. ^^
what should i say next?
ummm, i know most of our problem in our life is looking for our love one, am i right?
whether right now we have find the one yet or not...
i think, God made us each have a soul mate, oh come on you can say me that i'm naive or what still believing in something like that.. but honestly, yeah i do believe.
maybe it's like "the prayer" song..
"i hope each soul will find another soul to love..."
lol. actually what i am talking about now????
but guys, even if we haven't find the one yet, that doesn't mean we can't keep being happy and enjoy life. example, me. lol. i have being single for 5 months, and i am okay, i still enjoy my life and all. and i still have my friends... :)
but i know... sometimes i still feel so lonely, i still wants to have someone special, i want someone who can cuddle me, caress me, and all. but hey, if we spend time just for feel sorry for ourselves it won't work! God won't send someone that suddenly appear in front of us like magic right?
for that, we must go out, hanging with friends, and see if we can find somebody or just having fun... however guys, we live this life just ONCE, so don't wasting your time!! ^^
right now my age is 17 and it will be 18 on october this year.
i dunno am i still can call my self a teenager? or a young lady?
or even my dad still call me "baby girl" lol.
i'm not childish.. but i love when my dad called me that way, coz it means he loves me, rite?
even some ppl says that i'm wiser than my age, lol.
ahhhhhh.... i just made this blog and i dunno what to say coz this is my first time post a message.
but i think i will made this blog my diary, kinda like that.. ^^
what should i say next?
ummm, i know most of our problem in our life is looking for our love one, am i right?
whether right now we have find the one yet or not...
i think, God made us each have a soul mate, oh come on you can say me that i'm naive or what still believing in something like that.. but honestly, yeah i do believe.
maybe it's like "the prayer" song..
"i hope each soul will find another soul to love..."
lol. actually what i am talking about now????
but guys, even if we haven't find the one yet, that doesn't mean we can't keep being happy and enjoy life. example, me. lol. i have being single for 5 months, and i am okay, i still enjoy my life and all. and i still have my friends... :)
but i know... sometimes i still feel so lonely, i still wants to have someone special, i want someone who can cuddle me, caress me, and all. but hey, if we spend time just for feel sorry for ourselves it won't work! God won't send someone that suddenly appear in front of us like magic right?
for that, we must go out, hanging with friends, and see if we can find somebody or just having fun... however guys, we live this life just ONCE, so don't wasting your time!! ^^
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