"the rain's pouring down......

... and i wish i could found a deep hole on the ground"

Kinda missing this blog actually... lama banget ak ga nulis post... that's because ak lama ga ke warnet, dan hal itu disebabkan tak lain dan tak bukan karena ak abis kecelakaan.
-NO KIDDING-

Yup... ak beneran kecelakaan, well, ditabrak lebih tepat nya. Kejadiannya? Pulang kerja siang sekitar jam 2, ak sama Kishidou tapi ak yg didepan coz Kishidou lg rada sakit gitu. Ak mau belok di bunderan suatu jalan raya (should i mention it? even if i did, i'm not sure you guys will know it), ak mau belok, kecepatan ku paling cuman sekitar 30km/jam, tau2 dari kanan ada motor kenceng banget ke arah ku.. en, yea, tau2 semua gelap en terasa jumpalitan (persis kek waktu maen roller coaster) dan tau2 dengan ajaibnya ak uda ada di tanah dengan jarak lumayan jauh dr motorku yg uda jatoh terguling, dan badan ku semua sakit.

Spontan, ak nangis (hey! not that mean ak cengeng atau apa yahhh) trs langsung digotong org2 ke becak, abis ak beneran ga isa berdiri, langsung ke RS terdekat. Di RS... that's my first experience being in IGD karena kecelakaan. Badan ku bener2 sakit semua, and i can't stop crying, lucky me i have Kishidou with me. He keeps says that it's all gonna be alright and makes me feel so secure (nah lo, kumat deh diriku, heueuehuehueheue).

Ak sempet di rontgen dll, tapi gpp.... walo pun tulang belakang (maksud na daerah tulang ekor alias pantat, weeeeee...) ku sakiiiiiiit banget, kemungkinan besar itu cuman gara2 kebentur aspal dan becoz ak jatoh nya duduk *sigh...* Ditambah beberapa (banyak si) lecet2 di sekujur tubuh (halah) yang paling sebel si di bagian kening atas ku jg ada lecet yg LUMAYAN gede gara2 yah itu kegesek aspal pas ak jatoh helm ku kan lepas dan pergi meninggalkan ku :p yang pasti si, bakal berbekas, untung ga keliatan karena isa ditutupin rambut, tp kan tetep ajah,..... hiks...

Sementara itu org yg nabrak ak??? Pas di rumah sakit dia sempet dateng sama polisi2 (bayangin aja ak jatoh nya pas di sebelah pos polisi..!) en sempet ngomong sama Kishidou kalo dia bakal ganti rugi, dll. YANG AK HERAN, besok nya dia ngomong nya beda lagi... dia BILANG ak yg nabrak plat no nya dia, DAN ak yg ngebut. GUBRAK. Ak langsung speechless, plis deh.. gimana bisa dia MEMUTARBALIKAN fakta kek gitu. Dia bilang sama mama ku, klu polisi di pos ngeliat persis kejadian nya (oh yea?! emg na tu polisi yg di pos ngeliatin ak dr pertama??! Plis deeeeeeeeeeeee.....!!!! >_<)

Terus, dia ngasi duit 100k sama mama buat ganti biaya RS (btw, dia sama sekali ga jatoh.. cuman ak aja... sampe motorku muter dan ak kebanting lumayan jauh). NAH, itu tambah bikin ak curiga ajah, klu EMANG BENER ak yg nabrak dia ngapain dia pake ngasi biaya RS ku segala? Dan kalau EMANG AK YANG NABRAK, gimana bisa dia ga jatoh?!!

Ckckck,.... Ada bukti kah klu dia ga nyuap tuh polisi2? Bukan nya lebih gampang buat dia nyogok polisi2 itu, daripada ganti biaya2 RS ku semua PLUS biaya perbaikan motorku?! Yang bikin ak tambah curiga sama tuh bapak2 satu (selain mukanya yg mirip serigala berbulu domba of course) pas hari senen ke polres , dia sama sekali ga ngasi "uang terimakasi" ke polisi yg ngurusin kasusku (bukan polisi yang ngeliat ak tabrakan itu loh) padahal mamaku sendiri aja uda ngasi amplop lantaran ga enak sama polisi itu yg bilang "selanjutnya kebijaksanaan ibu ajah"

HUEH... indonesia, indonesia.... sebenernya ak pengen banget protes, ak pengen banget buktiin klo bukan ak yg nabrak, tp kalu ak ngotot, that's mean more a lot of money,... *sigh again...* Andai ak kaya kek Paris Hilton, wuih.. itu orang satu bakalan ak kejar! Bukan masalah ganti rugi, ak cuman mau dia ngaku klo emg dia salah, dan DIA EMANG SALAH!!!

Tapi yaw sudah lah.. mau gimana lagi to? Yang penting sekarang ak uda isa beraktivitas lagi, uda isa kerja lagi, uda isa maen lagi (walo masi lecet2). Tapi ak jd g ke wnet lama, sampe2 ga sempet bilang happy valentine to all my friends... sorry yah guys... but everyday is a valentine day rite? :D

Have a nice day everyone... God Bless... :)

tHe FiftH moNtH

sumtime i just wonder, how time is running so fast.... now it's already 5 months with me and Kishidou....

ga kek bulan sebelum na yg ada kejadian yg cukup gempar, bulan ini si ok ok ajah, malahan ak sempet lupa gara2 saking tegang nya mau cetak KHS.. duwh, sampe sekarang ak masi lom tau brp nilaiku, coz gara2 Jakarta banjir jd nya nilai nya blom isa diliat.. deg deg an, moga2 jangan her deh...

btw soal kul, ak bakal mutasi ke kelas sore di smstr berikut nya,.. soal nya ak mo pindah kerja. Well, officially sekarang ak kerja di 2 tempat, di RS sama di wnet, tp akhirnya kek na ak bakal milih kerja di RS na ajah coz jam kerja nya lebi santai en enak ajah, tp berhubung klu di RS itu masuk pagi mulu, ya jd ak musti mutasi kelas ku ke kelas sore, but it's ok, i think things will goin better.. hehe

bentar lagi juga valentine.. aih, ngapain ya? still don't have any plans actually..... hmmm lemme think about that later.

trus abis valentine bakal sinchia... awww... just hope ak bakalan dapet angpao, hihihi... ngarep deh ak... syapa juga yg bakal ngasi ak angpao yah? enakan pas masi kecil dulu, keliling2 rumah, cuman pai pai trs bilang "selamat tahun baru...!" langsung deh dapet angpao.. hehe. My childhood... miss it... lol.

Wah, that made we back to my first sentences, how time is running so fast. Jadul ngomongin ini? ih biarin! :P abis bener siy, kek na baru kemaren kita jd anak2 yg isa nya manja2, trs masuk sd, trs smp, trs sma, and here i am now.... jd kepikiran, what will i become 10 years later? being a career woman? or be a housewife? apa ak uda pny anak yah? berapa kira2? haha.. so many question, but that is life isn't it?? life is short.... so enjoy life...

when you're down to nothing, God is up to something

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You". I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me."

taken from : http://www.christianster.com