Happy Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry X'mas everyone....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Santa Claus is coming to town... tonight, exactly, coz tonight is Christmas Eve!!!
Hohohoho....
Ak seneng banget dahh akhirnya natal dateng lagi... Not only about celebrate X-mas and having party, but the most important is about celebrate Jesus Birthday!! :) He comes to the world so the world may be free from its sin, and so human can have a good relationship again with God, that's the reason Jesus comes, to save us from our sin, to died for us :)
And this year, hope Christmas bring us peace, joy, and of course... green to the world!!!

Monday.... again,.. urgh...

Kenapa?
Harus ada hari senen di dunia ini???????? Sebel banget rasa nya.. baru sehari aja enak2 libur, dan sekarang musti masuk kerja lagi................... aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhh.............. why Lord????????
Only God knows how will i pass this day......................... sighhh

maybe its kinda early... but.......

Every woman must wants kids. Right??

Huah speaking about kids, nda tau knp kok ak jd sering kepikiran sama Lenneth dan Rufus. Who are them???? Huehehehehehe... they are my future kids =P ak sama hunny uda sepakat kalau punya anak ce mau dinamain Lenneth, trs klu co Rufus.

Sebenernya, i made my mind that ak ga mau punya anak dulu, jadinya yah mau seneng2 dulu bedua gituu.... tapi yah, having kids is fun too i guees, dan walau pun sekarang ak belum siap, tapi rasanya uda pengen liat mereka. Hehe...... someday, pasti =)

Well, even this kinda too early to say, but i really wanna say this to Lenneth and Rufus :
"Mommy loves you....! And we will meet... sooner or later...!"

'The Moment'

Inget adegan di film2 yang sering kita tonton, dimana ada ce dan co yang saling mencintai (cieeeh...) dan adegan dimana tu co ngelamar si ce. Si co bakalan berlutut di depan ce itu, megang tangannya, dan bilang "Will you marry me?"

Awwwwww................. Yeph... kayaknya ce mana yg gak lumer klu co na, org yang paling dia cintain di dunia ini bilang kek gitu, dreams finally comes true! Haha.

Ok, thats 'The Moment' i talking about now. Pernah gak si bayangin hal2 kek gt? Hmm............. honestly, i already got the moment, walo pun gak sama si yg kek di pilm2, jd gimana2 juga bener nya pengen juga sih liat co ku berlutut trs ngeluarin cincin dan bilang gini "Paramita Octaviani, will you marry me??" Hahahahaha........ uda deh mulai ngayal nya.... =p

Somehow, ada seberapa sih ce yang ngayalin hal2 kayak gitu? Ada yang mimpiin cepet2 nikah sama co idamannya, contoh tmen kerja ku sendiri. Atau ada juga yang gak mau terikat, gak mau komitmen, yang masi pengen bebas seneng2, contoh best friend ku sendiri.




Aku pikir,... everyone's got their own happiness, ada yg emg bahagia dengan jd ibu rumah tangga, ngurusin rumah dan anak, dan ada juga yang emg harus jadi wanita karir, tipikal ce single di kota gede yang hidup free. Tapi kenapa yah kadang seorang istri isa ngayal "Coba kalau ak masi single dan bebas..." dan sebaliknya, seorang ce lajang bakal memimpikan nemuin co yang tepat, bukan cuman muter dari satu co ke co laen trs merit dan menetap dengan org itu. Thats the funny thing. Rumput tetangga emg selalu kelihatan lebih hijau. So.... i guess, guys, whoever you are, whatever you do know, or however your fate is, just try to be happy with you! Keep remember, everyone's got their own happiness, so are you =) and me.

My 19th Birthday

"Happy Birthday to me....
Happy Birthday to me..."

Yea....!!! Today is my birthday......!!!!! Tepatnya yg kesembilanbelas... doain yahhh....moga2 Mita tambah keren, tambah cantik, tambah imut, tambah dewasa, hihihi... maksa amat nyuruh orang ngedoainnya yah.... :d satu lagi, saya masih membuka kiriman comment di friendster, bagi yang mau mengucapkan happy besde atau mengirim kartu ucapan, saya terima dengan senang hati, dan seluruh ucapan yang masuk akan menjadi milik redaksi =D

Halah halah, tapi susahnya, walopun ini hari ultahku yang seharusnya berbahagia sejahtera ini, mood ku lagi gampang banget berubah, huhu... secara lagi PMS. Sekarang emg ak lg ceria gini, tp td di kantor sempet bad mood and feel totally loser... and lonesome... hiks..... Mungkin ak masi dalam tahap penyesuaian diri aja sih dengan lingkungan kerja yang baru, dan jujur aja td ak kesel gara2 anak2 klu ngomong emg ga pake otak (maap jika bahasa yang saya pakai sedikit kasar kali ini... =p ) seenaknya aja ngomongin orang yang engga2, huhuhu... emang nya mereka gak ngaca apa gaya mereka aja totally ndeso?????? dasar @#%&&@$%&*!!!!!!!

Hueeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................ Akhirnya lega sudah mengeluarkan unek2 disini........ =)

Tapi, betewe... I'm really thanks God, He still gimme place in this beautiful world, walo kadang si kayak lagunya M2M.... "Sometimes you just feel like the tight pants that you have don't fit, sometimes guys just make you sick, and you lookin for something to kick. You feel so lost in this pretty world, that how is sometimes feel, to be a ... GIRL"

See? But however.. ak tetep bersyukur banget.... ak isa ada disini, pny keluarga yg sayang sama ak..punya hunny yg jg cinta banget sama ak, pny kerjaan yang bagus, well hello??? ak seharusnya bersyukur banget kan??? =) Mungkin juga ini saatnya buat ak berpikir lebih dewasa, gak moody lagi, mau nerima kritikan orang lain, dan membangun diriku lagi dan lagi biar lebih baik. Karena ak tau.... ak punya masa depan yang cerah....!!!! ^_^

CIAYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st Anniversary

Yup.
This is the day i've been waiting for so long.
Today is
my first anniversary with my luvly hunny.

Ini juga sekaligus pemecah rekor pacaran terlama ku, ha, dr dulu si emg uda yg ini yg paling lama, tp ttp aja, ternyata kek gini ya rasanya pacaran sampe staon... hehe..
Kinda sad actually, soal na dia ga isa kesini, soal na ak sendirian aja, and this day is just like another day,
but... i really hope that we can talk on phone today, gimana gimana, ini kan hari yg spesial ya kan?? Hari yg ga bakal keulang lagi... for my entire life (halah, pdhl klu dipikir setiap hari si juga ga bakal keulang lagi yahh?)
Tapi.... by the way....
I do really really really hope, klu ak ga cuman bakal ngerayain setaon, dua taon, tiga taon, ak mau this would last until eternally..................
AMIN.......

Istri Harus Tunduk Kepada Suami (?!)

That's it.

Itu Firman Tuhan pagi ini yang ak denger dr Pdt. Dr. Ishak Daniel, M.Th. Ayat semacam itu ada cukup banyak di Alkitab, salah satunya di Efesus pasal 5, ayat berapa ak lupa. Pdt. Ishak td pagi ngomongin cukup jelas ttg masalah itu.. katanya itu adalah PERATURAN MUTLAK untuk membangun keluarga yang di Berkat i Allah.

Wow... it's his words like slap me.. selama ini, kayaknya ak (kayaknya..) uda cukup nurut sama dia, yep, org yg bakal jd suamiku.. walopun kadang ak masi mentingin egoku sendiri. Emang itu kelemahan ce, menenggelamkan egonya, demi.. kebahagiaan rumah tangga. Dan peraturan itu mutlak.. thats really mean "tunduk" dalam segala sesuatu, apapun itu.

Gosh that's made me feel kinda guilty.. masalahnya bbrp hari lalu ak sempet bertengkar sama co ku gara2 masalah boleh atau gak na ak cat rambut, ak ga mau dengerin dia, ak yg egois... (to my beloved hunny,... please forgive me.. sigh..)

Dan sekarang... setelah denger penjelasan dr Pak Ishak, ak uda yakin, kalau itu emg yg Tuhan mau. Dan ak mau dong nurutin apa kata Big Daddy ku. Mulai sekarang, ak mau belajar tunduk sama "suamiku" dalam hal apapun... Kan ga ada salahnya belajar dr sekarang, bsk klu uda merit beneran kan isa di praktekin bener2, hehe.

Tapi... syarat itu ga berlaku satu pihak aja, di lain pihak, for sure, ada syarat juga buat co-co.. yaitu, mereka harus mengasihi (baca : mencintai) satu wanita aja seumur hidup mereka, yaitu.. sang istri tercinta lah. Disitu Tuhan jg tau kelemahan para co, Tuhan tau klu co-co paling suka ngecengin ce cantik (haha, bener ga??) dan susah banget buat mereka untuk mengasihi satu org ce aja, SEUMUR HIDUP. Itu harga yg harus mereka bayar, agar dpt perkawinan yang menurut perintah-Nya.

Well... we may not a perfect human, but we can try to do that right? To do what He said? Karena ada firman : "Carilah dahulu Kerajaan Allah dan kebenarannya, maka semuanya itu akan ditambahkan kepadamu"
:)

Dreams

Cause baby 
anywhere the wind blows 
I will follow you 
It seems 
That in my life 
I still believe in dreams 
Where you are is where I'll be 
It's all that really matters to me
( John Waite - In Dreams )


Never mind what people say,
hold your head high and turn away
With all my hopes and dreams 
I will believe, even though it seems far from me
I won’t give up I'll keep it up, and look into the sky 
I will achieve 
On my knees I will always believe
( Yolanda Adams - I Believe )

Akhir2 ini ak aneh mungkin... Abis na, ak tau2 aja mbayangin gimana yah klu bsk ak merit, atau yah.. live together with my love lah..
Tadi aja, liat buku2 resep, jd pengen banget belajar masak, belajar bikin kue, cookies, macem2, jd isa masakin suamiku. Hehe.. tu kan, you may think that i'm completely strange,.. tapi.. punya mimpi itu sah-sah aja kan?
Nah,.. temen ku tadi langsung bilang "plis deh ah, you're just 18.., can you please thinking about anything else? except marriage??"
well hello?? is that wrong? to have dreams like that??? Emg na pikiran ku ketuaan yah dibanding anak2 seumurku? well, tmen ku aja udah ada yg merit, lg hamil, atau bahkan dah pny anak. So is that wrong just to have a dream?
Dreams are dreams, and org berhak dong bermimpi.. iya kan? Sebenr na,, ak si gak peduli orang mau omg apa.. i just will enjoy my life.. whether is's single life, or even marriage life :) mama ku aja nikah umur 17 dan diumur 18, kek ak sekarang, yang mo 19, dia dah pny anak ak, anak umur 2 taon. Nah loh.. keturunan kali yah?? hehehehe.. klu ini si tambah ngaco deh ak... :P

However.. today is 10 Months Anniversary with my luvly hunny... i really wants to enjoy this moment, even if maybe.. kedepan nya kita mungkin bakal banyak rintangan juga.. tp ak yakin kok .. ak ma dia bakal baek2 aja... :) we have God, we have love, and i'm sure we'll be fine..

My TwiNs...???!!!!

Pertama liat, sumpe ak bengong.
Maksud ku... kok isa yah miriiiiiiiiiip bgt ma ak? Kek lagi ngaca?

Hohoho,.. binun yah...? Gini2 cerita ne, ak pas lg nge add fs na adek sepupuku, trs di friendlist nya dia ak liat foto yg i think looks like me??? trs ak buka aja profil na, dan bener.. jreeeng.. emg mirip.. Beuh, bener deh kek kembaran ku banget,,... yah mirip2 na kek Marcell sama Mischa gitu deh.. hihi.. perbandingan na maksa...

Tuh liat ja gambar yg disebelah, wahai teman2 ku, khusus na yg uda pernah ketemu sama ak, liat de, mirip gak????? Itu bukan ak loh... itu ak ambil dr fs nya ce yg mirip ma ak itu, nama na Vallen. Ada yg kenal gak ma dia?? Ak jd pengen ketemu sama ni anak satu, trs jalan bareng, nah pasti deh dikirain sodara kembar... hehe. Liat ja, mirip mulai dr rambut, mata, idung, sama pipi na isa sama....

Ehm, tapi ada kok beda na dia ma ak,.. satu, pipi dia lebih chubby kek na, trs ga ada bolong na, klu pipiku kan ada bolong na, hehe itu si minjem istilahna hunny kuw, kata e pipi ku bolong ^^.

Tapi emg ada yah, orang yang bener2 mirip sama kita, sekalipun kita ga ada hubungan darah apapun sama orang itu. Eh tapi ada deng hubungan darah na, sama2 keturunan Adam dan Hawa gitu.... he... tp kenapa yah Tuhan kok isa nyiptain dua orang yg mirip? Tapi ya pasti ttp beda, org kembar identik aja isa beda kok...

Dunno, dunno... it's just a God's mistery...

can you see that you are the owner of my heart?

At this time, i miss my hunny so so so much... somehow i think how can i live without him? how can i survive? kadang2 sampe2 mikir, apa ak ne yah yg terlalu kek gini? is he feels the same way? abis na setiap dia ngasi offline message kok singkat2 bgt.. tapi tapi tapi... setelah dipikir2 lagi.. ya itulah dia, ya itu hunnyku tersayang.. halah halah...
tp iya kok.. mungkin ja dia emg susah buat ngungkapin na lwt kata2 atau gimana, tp yg lebih penting buat ak kan bukti na, maksud na dr sikap na, from his body language i know him, i can see him trough his heart... hmm... jd inget, pertama naek kereta ma dia pas sek-sek an banget waktu itu abis lebaran, but he treats me so sweet. I mean, i really know and i really can feel that this guy can protect me, no matter what happen, that how i feel, klu inget itu sekarang, jd senyum2 sendiri, trs ujung2 nya jd tambah kangen.. uda hampir sebulan kan ga ketemu.. tp bsk mo janjian maen seal bareng, asik asik, uda kangen banget soal na..
duh tu kan, mungkin ak yg terlalu berlebihan atau gimana? somebody please tell me...??

LoL

A woman goes to Italy to attend a 2-week, company training session.

Her husband drives her to the airport and wishes her to have a good trip.

The wife answers :
"Thank you honey, what would you like me to bring for you?"

The husband laughs and says: "An Italian girl".
The woman kept quiet and left.

Two weeks later he picks her up in the airport and asks:
"So, honey, how was the trip?"
"Very good, thank you."
"And, what happened to my present?"
"Which present?" She asked.
"The one I asked for - an Italian girl!!"
"Oh, that" she said "Well, I did what I could, now we have to wait for nine months to see if it is a girl !!!"

Moral of the story: Don't tempt a woman,
they are far too intelligent than you can imagine!

Believe-or-Not... LDR again

Sometimes it feels kinda strange.... i have been with my bf for 7 months already, be with him everyday.. but now, we must get in long distance love AGAIN..!
Ah.... but somehow i'm sure that we will be fine... it just.. eh, we gonna be 9 months annivessary soon, kinda sad that there is no him besides me..?
But we still can meet at internet, or by phone, or email, or sms, rite??
I trust him, and neither do him.
So i know that we will be fine...

'D Wedding Dress

Every girl must have dream about their wedding dress...

Dan sekarang, entah kenapa, tau2 ak jd kepikiran ttg My Wedding Dress. Aihh... I can imagine that on my mind, jelas ak mau yg simpel ajah, yg off shoulder pasti keren, trs rok na jgn panjang2, pendek di dpn trs belakangnya panjang gitu, soal na ak kan ga mau kepanasan. Bahan nya... jelas yg soft trs warna putih =) tp pink jg kayak nya keren yah.. hehehehehe..

Jangan lupa harus pake tudung, iyah HARUS pake pokok na, kan seru bgt tuh. Tudung na pake tiara gitu, atau bahkan flowery tiara, waw.. pasti keyen... Buket bunga jg ga boleh ketinggalan, musti pake acara "lempar buket"=D

Yah, cukuplah imajinasi ku sampe outfit ajah, ga perlu sampe acara2 dll na.. itu si nanti aja klu uda pny duit, kekekekekeke. Planning jelas ada, tp serahin aja lah sama My Greatest Lord, Dia tau kok apa yg terbaik buat ak =)

Ah ya hari selasa kemaren jg 7th months nya ak sama Kishidou, em, ga jarang juga loh kita bertengkar, malah mungkin cuman gara2 masalah sepele. Ah tp gpp, dengan gini ak baru bener2 ngerasain suka duka nya org pacaran, disitu kan seninya.. :p

Setengah Taon... Yee-Haa...!

"... once upon a time, I only imagine this
but now you're mine..."

How time running on so fast? Kayaknya, baru aja kemaren, ak chatting di hari minggu sambil jaga, trs sama mas edonk dimarahin abis senyum2 sendiri kek org aneh... hihihi... yea, in that day,.. ak jadian sama Kishidou., klu mau tau cerita lengkap nya silahkan baca blog ku edisi sebelom na :P

I just can't describe how happy i am. To have someone with you, who loves you and be with you everyday, it's just so amazing. Ak juga mau give my fully thanks to my one and only savior Jesus Christ. Without Him, i know i would never meet Kishidou and all...

Hihihi... ak kek lg ngapain ajah, kek lg dapet penghargaan Ammy Awards ajah :P biarin ah sekali2 boleh kan :D oh ya ini malem minggu juga ak lagi jaga, tp gpp, i'll celebrate it with him in this internet cafe, hehe.

Oh ya, barusan ak juga personally being blessed, very blessed. Gini ceritanya, td kan ak sama Kishidou janjian di greja, eh dia ga dateng2 sampe jam 7 kurang, padahal ak jam 7 harus uda ada di wnet. Ak uda bingung banget... ngga tau musti gimana kan? soalnya Kishidou jg g tau klu ak hari ini jaga. Trs ak cerita sama Om Yo, dia tuh kek "papa rohani" ku gitu, dia bilang, "Ga bakal ada apa2, udah sana km ke warnet. Percaya aja sama ak.."

Y udah ak langsung meluncur ke warnet, walopun iya ak deg2 an banget, ak takut ada apa2 sama Kishidou. Soalnya hape Kishidou juga di bawa ak jd otomatis ak ga isa hubungin dia sama sekali kan. Trs ga lama tau2 hape nya Kishidou bunyi, ternyata Kishidou, dia ada di greja. Huhuhuhu, sumpah langsung legaaaaaaa banget rasanya. Bener2 langsung pengen tereak, "Thx God..!" hehehe

Sekarang, Kishidou lg ak mintain tolong ngembaliin kaset sama beliin eskrim.. hehe... pengen makan es krim. Ya udah, have a nice night everyone, God Bless!

"the rain's pouring down......

... and i wish i could found a deep hole on the ground"

Kinda missing this blog actually... lama banget ak ga nulis post... that's because ak lama ga ke warnet, dan hal itu disebabkan tak lain dan tak bukan karena ak abis kecelakaan.
-NO KIDDING-

Yup... ak beneran kecelakaan, well, ditabrak lebih tepat nya. Kejadiannya? Pulang kerja siang sekitar jam 2, ak sama Kishidou tapi ak yg didepan coz Kishidou lg rada sakit gitu. Ak mau belok di bunderan suatu jalan raya (should i mention it? even if i did, i'm not sure you guys will know it), ak mau belok, kecepatan ku paling cuman sekitar 30km/jam, tau2 dari kanan ada motor kenceng banget ke arah ku.. en, yea, tau2 semua gelap en terasa jumpalitan (persis kek waktu maen roller coaster) dan tau2 dengan ajaibnya ak uda ada di tanah dengan jarak lumayan jauh dr motorku yg uda jatoh terguling, dan badan ku semua sakit.

Spontan, ak nangis (hey! not that mean ak cengeng atau apa yahhh) trs langsung digotong org2 ke becak, abis ak beneran ga isa berdiri, langsung ke RS terdekat. Di RS... that's my first experience being in IGD karena kecelakaan. Badan ku bener2 sakit semua, and i can't stop crying, lucky me i have Kishidou with me. He keeps says that it's all gonna be alright and makes me feel so secure (nah lo, kumat deh diriku, heueuehuehueheue).

Ak sempet di rontgen dll, tapi gpp.... walo pun tulang belakang (maksud na daerah tulang ekor alias pantat, weeeeee...) ku sakiiiiiiit banget, kemungkinan besar itu cuman gara2 kebentur aspal dan becoz ak jatoh nya duduk *sigh...* Ditambah beberapa (banyak si) lecet2 di sekujur tubuh (halah) yang paling sebel si di bagian kening atas ku jg ada lecet yg LUMAYAN gede gara2 yah itu kegesek aspal pas ak jatoh helm ku kan lepas dan pergi meninggalkan ku :p yang pasti si, bakal berbekas, untung ga keliatan karena isa ditutupin rambut, tp kan tetep ajah,..... hiks...

Sementara itu org yg nabrak ak??? Pas di rumah sakit dia sempet dateng sama polisi2 (bayangin aja ak jatoh nya pas di sebelah pos polisi..!) en sempet ngomong sama Kishidou kalo dia bakal ganti rugi, dll. YANG AK HERAN, besok nya dia ngomong nya beda lagi... dia BILANG ak yg nabrak plat no nya dia, DAN ak yg ngebut. GUBRAK. Ak langsung speechless, plis deh.. gimana bisa dia MEMUTARBALIKAN fakta kek gitu. Dia bilang sama mama ku, klu polisi di pos ngeliat persis kejadian nya (oh yea?! emg na tu polisi yg di pos ngeliatin ak dr pertama??! Plis deeeeeeeeeeeee.....!!!! >_<)

Terus, dia ngasi duit 100k sama mama buat ganti biaya RS (btw, dia sama sekali ga jatoh.. cuman ak aja... sampe motorku muter dan ak kebanting lumayan jauh). NAH, itu tambah bikin ak curiga ajah, klu EMANG BENER ak yg nabrak dia ngapain dia pake ngasi biaya RS ku segala? Dan kalau EMANG AK YANG NABRAK, gimana bisa dia ga jatoh?!!

Ckckck,.... Ada bukti kah klu dia ga nyuap tuh polisi2? Bukan nya lebih gampang buat dia nyogok polisi2 itu, daripada ganti biaya2 RS ku semua PLUS biaya perbaikan motorku?! Yang bikin ak tambah curiga sama tuh bapak2 satu (selain mukanya yg mirip serigala berbulu domba of course) pas hari senen ke polres , dia sama sekali ga ngasi "uang terimakasi" ke polisi yg ngurusin kasusku (bukan polisi yang ngeliat ak tabrakan itu loh) padahal mamaku sendiri aja uda ngasi amplop lantaran ga enak sama polisi itu yg bilang "selanjutnya kebijaksanaan ibu ajah"

HUEH... indonesia, indonesia.... sebenernya ak pengen banget protes, ak pengen banget buktiin klo bukan ak yg nabrak, tp kalu ak ngotot, that's mean more a lot of money,... *sigh again...* Andai ak kaya kek Paris Hilton, wuih.. itu orang satu bakalan ak kejar! Bukan masalah ganti rugi, ak cuman mau dia ngaku klo emg dia salah, dan DIA EMANG SALAH!!!

Tapi yaw sudah lah.. mau gimana lagi to? Yang penting sekarang ak uda isa beraktivitas lagi, uda isa kerja lagi, uda isa maen lagi (walo masi lecet2). Tapi ak jd g ke wnet lama, sampe2 ga sempet bilang happy valentine to all my friends... sorry yah guys... but everyday is a valentine day rite? :D

Have a nice day everyone... God Bless... :)

tHe FiftH moNtH

sumtime i just wonder, how time is running so fast.... now it's already 5 months with me and Kishidou....

ga kek bulan sebelum na yg ada kejadian yg cukup gempar, bulan ini si ok ok ajah, malahan ak sempet lupa gara2 saking tegang nya mau cetak KHS.. duwh, sampe sekarang ak masi lom tau brp nilaiku, coz gara2 Jakarta banjir jd nya nilai nya blom isa diliat.. deg deg an, moga2 jangan her deh...

btw soal kul, ak bakal mutasi ke kelas sore di smstr berikut nya,.. soal nya ak mo pindah kerja. Well, officially sekarang ak kerja di 2 tempat, di RS sama di wnet, tp akhirnya kek na ak bakal milih kerja di RS na ajah coz jam kerja nya lebi santai en enak ajah, tp berhubung klu di RS itu masuk pagi mulu, ya jd ak musti mutasi kelas ku ke kelas sore, but it's ok, i think things will goin better.. hehe

bentar lagi juga valentine.. aih, ngapain ya? still don't have any plans actually..... hmmm lemme think about that later.

trus abis valentine bakal sinchia... awww... just hope ak bakalan dapet angpao, hihihi... ngarep deh ak... syapa juga yg bakal ngasi ak angpao yah? enakan pas masi kecil dulu, keliling2 rumah, cuman pai pai trs bilang "selamat tahun baru...!" langsung deh dapet angpao.. hehe. My childhood... miss it... lol.

Wah, that made we back to my first sentences, how time is running so fast. Jadul ngomongin ini? ih biarin! :P abis bener siy, kek na baru kemaren kita jd anak2 yg isa nya manja2, trs masuk sd, trs smp, trs sma, and here i am now.... jd kepikiran, what will i become 10 years later? being a career woman? or be a housewife? apa ak uda pny anak yah? berapa kira2? haha.. so many question, but that is life isn't it?? life is short.... so enjoy life...

when you're down to nothing, God is up to something

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You". I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me."

taken from : http://www.christianster.com

Happiness

Dua hari ini ak lg hepi.. kek bakal ada sesuatu yg bakal terjadi. Tp apa yah??? Aneh nya sepupu ku malah bilang dia lg ada bad feeling... nah loh.. kok isa bertentangan gini siy? Ak na good feeling, dia nya bad feeling.
Wah sebener na ak g tau mao nulis apa di blog, cuman yah buat ngisi2 waktu ajah, abis lg bosen lg nungguin Kishidou g dateng2... hum... let's talk about... happiness.
Happiness, is it just a human feelings that nobody can describe how it feels actually. Sama ajah kek feeling2 yang laen. Such as love, anger, sadness, ect ect. How can we know if we feel happy? Maybe we feel happy klo kesandung duit sekoper, atau menang undian semilyar, atau katakanlah cinta kita diterima sama org yang dari dulu kita kejar2. Hehe.
Is that happy means?
Actually, we can choose to be happy, or to be NOT happy. How come? I mean.. look at us... Kita adalah tokoh utama dalam cerita kita masing2, dan orang2 disekitar kita adalah pemeran pembantu; padahal kalo kita pikir, mereka juga adalah tokoh utama, tentu saja dalam cerita (baca : hidup) mereka sendiri.
Kita bangun pagi tadi, kita ada disini, mungkin baca tulisan ini, kita masih bernafas, itu adalah suatu ANUGERAH. Is that rite? Walau pun setiap manusia pasti lah punya masalah. Bahkan banyak yang masalah na semakin banyak begitu memasuki tahun 2007 ini. But hey, look... we're still alive, we can still breathe the fresh air, we still can feel so much feelings.
Don't you think that YOU ARE BLESSED?
Iya, ak ga muna. Tetep ajah, ak suka menggerutu, marah2, dan merasa g puas atas ak apa adanya, atau feeling desperate with my problems. Tapi, bukankah kita masi bisa menyelesaikan masalah itu? Setiap masalah, apapun itu kan pasti ada jalan keluarnya. So why not smile and try to enjoy your day? Take a deep breath.. and let you think positive... =)
We may have a big big problem. But why not try to say "Thanks God" and just believe... you will feel MUCH MUCH BETTER.

ToDaY...

Hari ini ujian DBMS, setelah dengan sukses belajar selama setengah jam, dan 2 setengah jam laen nya untuk bobo siang, maka bisa dipastikan banyak yg g tau pas ujian. Hehe... sukur deh ada yg nyantel satu dua di otak, yah asal g sampe her ajah.. kan males bgt tuh...
Besok tinggal ujian hari terakhir,... akuntansi! OMG... semoga ga kek ujian UTS kemaren, yg bener ajah, ak ngerasa isa ngerjain gitu ternyata dapet na D..!! What a shame.... :(
Yang bikin parah na, UTS kemaren ternyata banyak bgt jawaban ku yg ga kebaca OCR, berhubung ujian na pake LJK. Entah apa yg salah, ak yg g isa mbulet2 in atau pensil ku, gara2 ak pake Faber Castell.. hiks hiks... Just pray ujian sekarang bakal lebih baek dr ujian kemaren. Kan isa gawat klu IP ku g sampe 2,75?! Ah.. ak si positif aja isa dapet IP 3 lebih, hihi...
Nah, forget about exams.... Ayo cerita yg seneng2 ajah... gini gini.. abis ujian kan libur sebulan lebih neh... yg pasti isa santai2 di rumah, hihi.. maen suikoden sampe tamat.. target ku mah namatin suikoden V sama mo maen suikoden 3. Trs penasaran ma harvest moon, sama playboy mansion.. haha... vocation... please come soon...!!! ^_^
dah ah.... mo chat dulu ma anak2... :D

Wad Is "The Wedding" Mean?

Ehm, banyak orang takut dengan yg nama nya komitmen, dan komitmen diatas segala komitmen adalah merit alias nikah. What's the reason behind marriage? Jawaban yang langsung ada di pikiran adalah "cinta" but hey.. that's too abstract, isn't it?
Gimana klu feeling? When your feeling says you wants marry this someone, than marry him/her. Hehe... gampang na si gitu... tp apa si logika nya di balik org merit ituh? Let me try to write it here...

Menikah itu seperti bermain kaki tiga.
Itu lho, permainan jaman 17 Agustusan ketika kita harus memilih partner yang kaki sebelahnya diikat ke salah satu kaki kita dan berdua musti mencoba berlari sama-sama, sambil nahan malu
dan berusaha nggak jatuh di tengah- tengah ibu-ibu satu RT yang histeris.

It's like the game in the sense that your partner and you understand each other perfectly where to go.

Your partner and you understand that you need to walk together without anyone left behind, dragged behind, tailed behind, or holding you from behind. You know that you need to harmonize your path together.

Your partner and you agree on how tight the rope should be tying your legs together, either loose, considerably tight, or barely feel it; and understand that the rope is there not to keep either of you from doing something else, but to give you a chance to do it together and win the day.

Last but not least, both of you agree that when something got rough, blaming the other for falling down will not do any good. Picking up the other's shoulder and support him/her to keep on walking is the only way to get to the finish line.


source at friendster bulbo by my friend

Paris Hilton

Many people may hate her.
Some call her a slut.
But i call her... "a nice bitch"

I Luv Paris
Haha, bukan berarti ak lesbi atau apa, tapi.. Paris bener2 keren..
Wanna know why??
All the worlds may hate her, but she keeps smiling.
Isn't that cool?

Dia jd seorang yg kontroversial setelah kemunculan "perdana" film biru nya dengan Rick Salomon.
Singkat kata, banyak yg ga suka sama dia, banyak yg ngejelek-jelekin dia. Hampir semua berita2 mengenai Paris Hilton tuh berita yg ga sedap.
Banyak org mencibir saat Paris berencana mengeluarkan album perdana nya dia "PARIS" dengan singel "Stars Are Blind". And guess what? Album itu meledak dipasaran. Bahkan lagu Stars Are Blind nya Paris pernah ak jadiin lagu kebangsaan ku, hehe.

Belum lagi acara "Simple Life" yang dia pandu bersama Nicole Richie. Acara itu buat ku pribadi keren banget. Bikin tambah semangat, hehehe.
Satu kalimat khas Paris yg sering muncul di acara itu,
"I love you bitch.."
Tau ga yg bikin ak semangat klu abis nonton Simple Life? Abis di acara situ, keliatan bgt kalau Paris dan Nicole bener2 tau cara nya menikmati hidup. Itu yg bikin ak terkesan, yg ngebikin ak pengen untuk menikmati hidup ini, just like Paris and Nicole did.

So Paris, please keep glowing because you still have a big fan, like me..!

4 months with Kishidou

Yeph.. hari ini ak pas 4 bulan sama Kishidou.. g rasa juga.. =)
Happy? Yea i am.. tp hari ini bener2 cape.... kek na lebih enak klu ak cerita dr kejadian kemaren siang deh ya.. gini, kishidou bilang ada yg mo di omongin, ak jd penasaran kan ada apa. tp dia g mo kasi tau akhirnya ya udah ak kesana malem nya, trs ak tanya mo omg apa. dia blng, dia mo tanya2 ma ak, ak tambah penasaran...
trs akhirnya dia tanya, yah intinya, dia tau klu ak tuh selama ini suka ngerokok diem2... well, guilty banget sih, tp suer, akhir2 ini tuh ak uda jarang bgt ngerokok. yah, then i promise him klu ak g bakal ngerokok lagi. dan ak sungguh2 kok sama janji ku. ak g akan ngerokok lagi.
trs, abis itu, dia tanya lagi... yg ini bener2 bkn ak shock... dia tanya... "sebelom na dah pernah ML blm?" gubrak. beneran ak kaget banget... dia g mikir klu ak ini "ce gampangan" kan??? itu satu2 nya yg ada di pikiran ku. trs ak kasi tau dia, klu jangankan ML, first kiss ku ajah sama dia. gimana mau ML sama org laen coba?? kek g tau aja klu cerita cintaku selalu berakhir tragis, hehe..
mmmmmm....
trs ak ganti tanya, klu dirinya pernah ga sebelom na? dia jawab... "pernah". gubrak dua kali. sampe disitu ak brenti tanya2, plis deh, ngebayangin dia ma ce laen ajah dah bkn ak sakit setengah mati... ak jd tau bener dah perasaan nya kaoru sama tomoe, atau kagome sama kikyo... huhuhu, sakit sih, but he's mine rite now ya kann???
trs,... yg bkn ak sedih bgt kemaren malem... ak tanya ma dia emg bibir ku keliatan item bgt? coz sebelom na dia blng bibir ku tambah item.. duh, dia jawab "iya". bener dah, pas dia jawab itu rasa na sakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit bgt.... maksud ku... ak g ngerasa kok klu bibir ku segitu item na.. org ak ngerokok aja jarang2 kann??
trs ak otomatis jd manyun gt, pas dia tanya ada apa, ak jawab aja klu ak sebel abis kek na ak jd jelek bgt.. yg ada dipikiran ku pas itu sih ak pengen dia blng ak g jelek, ak pengen dia blng ak cantik... just like the others girl will think too.. tp dia malah blng gini,
"lho kok jelek sih? klo jelek kan ya ak g sayang? lha karena ak sayang makanya ak ngomong gini"
and akhirnya.. ak pulang, ngerasa klu diri ku ini paliiiiinngggg jelek... abis percuma kan klu org laen muji2 ak blng ak cantik tp co ku ndiri g pernah blng ak cantik???? ok.... nulis blog ini aja bkn ak sedih lagi.. =( tapi...... ak pengen cerita biar lega...
di rumah nya, ak sms kishidou, ak blng "klu ak berubah jd jelek, will you still love me?" tau jawaban nya? kata nya "i luv you bkn karena cantik, i luv you becoz the way you love me. that made me luv you" ok ok, ak tau itu jawaban yang "memuaskan" but still... ak kan pengen dibilang cantik sama co ku sendiri,...!!!
hhhhhhhhhhhh............. ambil nafas dulu...............
pokok na,... ak bertekad.. i wanna be a beautiful girl... for my bf, td malem ak mikir, ak harus berubah jd secantik apa sih biar dia bisa bener2 blng klu ak cantik??? i know it's not about outer appereance krn itu isa ilang. tp ttp aja kan... u girls pasti tau lah perasaan ku...
i just wanna be perfect for him...
trs hari ini, hasil ujian UTS ku keluar... en jujur, ak g puas, bener2 g puas, bayangin ajah akuntansi ak isa dpt D... wew... padahal rasa nya ak isa ngerjain semua?? emg si ada yg dpt A, tp kan cuma satu mata kuliah, yg gampang lagi. makanya ak bener2 g puas. pokok na di smstr 2 ak mau bener2 belajar..!!
td siang bener na ak sampe mikir... ak dah ga kuat lagi, td malem not such a good nite, dan siang na ak dibikin tambah sebel.. mana dr kul ak langsung kerja lagi.. cape banget.. ya sampe sekarang ini.... :(

tp, above it all... i must still gave thanks to God... rite? at least, nothing change. i still have kishidou, i still have ppl luvs me... and most of all, i have Jesus with me. oh ya, satu ak lom cerita.. td malem jg ada kok kejadian yg bkn ak bahagia juga.. pertanyaan keempat na kishidou. dia blng pertanyaan na si buat setaon lagi, tp ak blng sekarang aja tanya nya, tar ak jawab na setaon lagi. hihi. and yea, as you can guess, he asks me "would you marry me?"
hahahaha.. can't believe that actually,.. lol.
ah, tar malem bentar lg jg dia mo kesini, jemput ak soal na td motor ku dibawa sama kishidou...
sekarang.. ak dah lega dah curhat di blog.. trs hal terakhir yg pengen ak bilang.. "maybe sometimes i feel so down. but i know that You are always with me... thank you Jesus..."