So Close

Td malem, jose sms aku.... dia bilang "ak kangen bgt sama km". Hueks!! Plis deh, dan sms itu ga ak balesin. Yang bener aja deh, dia uda nyakitin ak sebegitu nya, trus dng enak nya dia bilang kyk gitu???

"You were everything that i wanted,
we are meant to be, supposed to be..
but we lost it..
and all of the memories so close to me just fade away.."

Sekarang gini, klo ak, uda cinta sama co,
i can give him everything...
tapi, dia malah nyia-nyiain itu.
Dan sekarang, udah terlambat untuk kata maaf

Lagian, I have Kishidou now right?
He is everything that i can expected
Who's the one who besides me when i am scared and when i need someone?
Kishidou... bukan Jose
Jadi, jawaban ku ke Jose udah jelas kan...?
Kishidou, klo kishidou baca ini.... just trust me, that my love is only for you right now. And no one can compare it, termasuk Jose...
Jose udah nyakitin hatiku, tapi Kishidou udah nyembuhin luka itu...
I just love you... the only one... trust me.

At first I was afraid I was petrified
I kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you've done me wrong and I grew strong
I learned how to get along
And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me
Oh now go, walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I, I will survive
As Long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me

Another Quiz ;)

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HoTTie.... geezzzz

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Am I a Good Girl?? Tee-Hee (wink~~)

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Tired

I dunno....
Kyk nya ak mulai ngerasa cape plus jenuh sama hari2 ini,
semua nya sama aja..
pagi kuliah, sore kerja....
akhir2 ini ak sering mikir
"whoa! uda pagi lagi!"

Mungkin ak cuma terlalu cape...
sama kerjaan ini?
Thx God besok hari terakhir kuliah,
mungkin liburan ini...
akhirnya...
i can take a rest...
(walopun masi kerja >.<)

One Month

Hari ini tanggal 10 Oktober 2006... haha, hari ini... pas sebulan ak "jadian" sama kishidou.
Tadi nya, ak pikir dia ga inget, tp ternyata... dia inget! kishidou bilang hari ini hari "totemo aishiteimasu" heuheuheuehue... geli sendiri pas dia omg itu. tp, jelas, ak happy bgt...
i mean, seberapa banyak sih co yg inget tanggal jadian? apalagi cuma sebulan?? aihh.........

Kishidou.... bener2 baek. It's really like my dreams come true..

It's like he come stepped out from my dream

he cares me much, he know me so good, bahkan dia bener2 bakal dateng ke pwt buat ketemu ak.
i mean, for me he's really perfect..........

what i could ask for more??

ak jg inget, dulu bgt ak pernah mimpiin pangeran ku. He said.. "wait a moment.. tunggu sampai kamu 17 tahun"
yah ak ga inget bgt yg dimaksud sama "my soulmate in my dream" itu, waktu ak 17 tahun atau dia 17 tahun?
hey, bentar lagi ultah ku yg ke 18.. brarti waktu ketemu kishidou ak masih 17 kan??
owh... iya ak ngaku, emg semua co yg pacaran sama ak setahun ini semua nya bikin ak bertanya dlm hati, "could he is the one for me?"

trus gimana dengan kishidou ya?
could he be the one?

Right now, i just feel so happy.... and i hope that this feeling will last eternally...
I hope...

Who Am I?

Actually, who is me?
And what's people looks in me?
Is there someone who really loves me?
Someone who really cares me?

People may judged me wrong
But i don't care
They don't know me
They don't know the real me

I live my own life
This is my prerogative
I think i'm big enough to take
my own decisions and my own way